On the last day of the challenge, I dedicate TFIOS a quote from TFIOS itself:
Sometimes you read a book and it fills you with this weird evangelical zeal and you become convinced that the shattered world will never be put back together unless and until all living humans read the book.
This is exactly what TFIOS and the Harry Potter series did to me. I can’t imagine what a kind of person I’d be had these two amazing books not come into my life. The whole world must read these books because they teach us more than any person, dead or alive, any encyclopaedia or any institution can!
Today, for the umpteenth time, thank you, RavenclawSam for recommending these life-transforming books to me! I can’t thank you enough! Nor can I thank JKR and John Green for conjuring fandoms that shall never die. These awesome people gave us something to love, learn from and cherish, ALWAYS.
Another favourite from TFIOS:
Much of my life has been devoted to trying not to cry in front of people who loved me, so I knew what Augustus was doing. You clench your teeth. You look up. You tell yourself that if they see you cry, it will hurt them, and you will be nothing but a sadness in their lives, and you must not become a mere sadness, so you will not cry, and you say all of this to yourself while looking up at the ceiling, and then you swallow even though your throat does not want to close and you look at the person who loves you and smile.
-Hazel Grace Lancaster
I’ve not been an active blogger lately. I just don’t feel like writing. It’s just emptiness. Two friends insisted that I write again; one friend was re-reading my old posts yesterday. I knew I must not let them down. I have to come back. Hopefully, I have.
Thank you, Anything and Everything, for nominating me for the 3 days, 3 quotes challenge! Since most of the bloggers I know have already taken it up, I’m not going to nominate anyone but I’m definitely going to post some of my favourite quotes for the upcoming three days. What’s more, I’ve decided to dedicate it to The Fault in Our Stars. Here’s the quote for day 1:
I cannot tell you how thankful I am for our little infinity. I wouldn’t trade it for the world. You gave me a forever within the numbered days, and I’m grateful.
This post comes at a time when if I’m asked my biggest fear, like Augustus Waters in TFIOS, I’ll reply: Oblivion. Yes. Tomorrow, I shall leave this city of dreams, my hometown; for four months straight and head for a new beginning. Fortunately or unfortunately, I do not have an emotional range of a teaspoon like Ron Weasley. I’m overflowing with oodles of feelings so I’d better get going and share them with you lovely people out there.
I’m anxious. Will I be remembered by the ones who have been close to me till date? Will absence make hearts grow fonder or will distance ruin relationships? Will I be a part of some conversations regularly; like a happy memory? Will my absence matter to someone? Or will things be the other way round? Will I become a forgotten fairy tale and never be remembered? Will my absence make no difference to anyone? Will my return not be anticipated? Will I be missed genuinely or only at the times of need? Will it be difficult for someone to live without me or will it be as easy as any other day?
Honestly, a simple “I shall miss you” from anyone means the world to me at this time!!!!!!! However, there are hardly 2-3 souls who say and feel so. Maybe, I’m not a person worth remembering. I’ll be grateful to all those who prove me wrong and who will miss me despite my being of less value to the world. I promise to be the same as I was, talk to you all as usual; I shall never be gone if I reside in your heart. Please be happy and take care, people! I love you and thanks a lot for loving me back!
I’ve lost more friends than I ever made. It hurts when people strand you in a deserted street and walk off as if they never knew you. I need to be a thousand times more cautious before making friends. I’m on the verge of a precipice where I have no idea what shall happen next. One step forward and it’s either oblivion and isolation or feeling cared and loved in a far off place too. I have no clue what is in store. With loads of trepidation and excitement but also the sorrow of parting from loved ones, tomorrow I shall take a giant leap into the sky. I may fall or stumble but definitely there’s no quitting. The love and best wishes of my loved ones will take me through.
I might cry if I type any more. All the best, my lovely people. Keep in touch and love me as you do. I owe my courage to you. Thanks for being by my side.
Distance will never be able to ruin us. We shall ruin the distance.
Keep smiling and may God always bless you.
Lots of love. Remember, I’m there for you, ALWAYS.